GIRLS | HELLHOLE RATRACE

I'm sick and tired of the way that I feel
I'm sick of dreaming and it's never for real
I'm all alone with my deep thoughts
I'm all alone with my heartache and my good intentions

I work to eat and drink and sleep just to live
Feels like I'm never getting back what I give
I've got a sad song in my sweet heart
And all I really ever need is some love and attention 

And I don't want to cry my whole life through
I want to do some laughing too
So come on, come on, come on, come on, laugh with me 
And I don't want to die without shaking up a leg or two
Yeah, I want to do some dancing too
So come on, come on, come on, come on, dance with me

Sometimes you've just got to make it for yourself
Sometimes, sugar, it just takes someone else
Sometimes you've just got to make it for yourself
Sometimes, baby, you just need someone else

And I don't want to cry my whole life through
I want to do some laughing too
So come on, come on, come on, come on, laugh with me
And I don't want to die without shaking up a leg or two
Yeah, I want to do some dancing too
So come on, come on, come on, come on, dance with me

Sometimes you've just got to make it for yourself
Sometimes, honey, it just takes someone else
Sometimes you've just got to make it for yourself
Sometimes, darling, you just need someone else

And I don't want to cry my whole life through
I want to do some laughing too
So come on, come on, come on, come on, laugh with me
And I don't want to die without shaking up a leg or two
Yeah, I want to do some dancing too
So come on, come on, come on, come on, dance with me 

Radiohead - Creep

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so fucking special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She's run, run, run, running out

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here 

Girls - Laura (Official Video)

Where did it start?
We used to be friends
Now when I run into you, I pretend I don't see you
I know that you hate me

I've tried to be tough
I've tried to be mean
I don't want to be like this
And I hope that you listen
All I'm trying to say is

Reach out and touch me
I'm right here
And I don't want to find anymore
I really want to be your friend forever
Friend until the end of it all

I know I've made mistakes
But I'm asking you give me a break
I really want to be your friend forever
Friends forever

You've been a bitch
I've been an ass
I don't want to point the finger
I just know I don't like it
I don't want to do this

What can I do? (What should I do?)
Is it too late? (Oh, oh, oh, oh)
I just want to say I'm sorry
And I hope you listen
I'm trying to say this

Reach out and touch me
I'm right here
And I don't want to find anymore
I really want to be your friend forever
Friend until the end of it all

I know I've made mistakes
But I'm asking you to give me a break
I really want to be your friend forever
Friends forever

Laura, baby, I'm right here
And I don't want to fight anymore
I really want to be your friend forever
Friend until the end of it all

I know I've made mistakes
But I'm asking you to give me a break
I really want to be your friend forever
Friends forever 

下雨天

这几天连续的雨
让很多地方淹水
让空气变得很冷
让独自一人的人们
更想要有个伴
好让另一个人
给予温暖

独自一人
冰冷空气
总是让人
不由自主
感到落寞

心
突然有点空虚
突然很想得到一个拥抱

体温
拥抱
或许 才是填满心里空虚的良药

雨天
曾经很爱的天气
忽然间
变得一点都不可爱了

坏人

曾经我深爱的一个男人
对我说过
他不是好男人
结果，我还是栽进去了
爱疯了，爱到无法自拔
现在，他还是说他不是好男人
但，我肯定现在的他一定是个好男人

那天，
有个男人在我耳边对我说
“我不是一个好男人”
我笑了
我问他为什么
他也说不出来

一个男人对一个女人说
“我不是一个好男人”
是要表达什么？

难道是表示说，
我已经跟你说了
我不是好男人
可是，如果你还是要喜欢上我
那可不关我事

还是表示说，
我喜欢你，
可是，我不是一个好男人
所以，我得先把话和你说清楚
因为或许我根本就给不了你什么

我选择相信
他们要表达的是
后者

因为，
心，是感觉得到的~

I care...

I miss the days we sms to each other
I miss the days you share your things with me
I miss the days...
I miss our friendship
and I care...
I really care about you, my friend~

You told me I done nothing wrong between us
But can you tell me why?
Why we turn out like this?
It bother me so much...

I'm told that I'm too serious
Really?
I don't know..
But I really care about our friendship

happy birthday

I should, I suppose to upload my birthday picture here..
unfortunately, I didn't take any picture this year...
I didn't celebrate my birthday...
I'm not Agong, I still have to work even it's my birthday..
People around me ask me why?
Why I didn't celebrate this year?
Haha, I also don't know why..
I just don't feel like celebrate it..

BUT...

My sister and Big Family members gave me a birthday surprise..
Nee purposely came back to my work place and bought me a slice of delicious cake..
I thought my birthday will be ended like this
However, when I was about to pack up my stuff and back home..
Big Family suddenly came out with a birthday cake
I was so shocked at that moment...
I really really appreciate what my sister and Big Family have done to me

Here is the picture taken by Denrick

My birthday wish

Everything shun shun li li.. Huat ar~

庆幸。

听了你不知道的事后，
下一首是，张智霖的祝君好
又一首，林晓培的不哭
再来是，范逸臣的放生

我已经调了随机这个功能
可是曲目却这么凑巧地令人伤心
庆幸的是，好彩我没失恋
不然听了这些歌后
伴我入眠的会是泪湿了的枕头

晚安~

曲目

近期最喜欢的歌应该是
王力宏＂你不知道的事＂
每当出门回家后，
这首歌就会一直在我脑海出现。
可是很多时候，
出现的不是旋律，
而只是歌名。
我很喜欢这首歌，
很喜欢它的词，
然而让我一直挥之不去的是
它的名，
＂你不知道的事＂

人生啊~

人生最幸福的事，
莫過於
找個懂你的人；
珍惜你的人。

不需要全部的人了解我
但，
至少我在乎的人，
請懂我，好嗎？

原因很簡單，
那是因為
我愛你們~

Only one

I don't wanna be one of the girl in your life
I wannna be the only girl
a special one~

感歎

唉。。。
到底是什麽破壞愛情原有的面貌？
社會？
人為？
仰或是虛情假意開始盛行？

現今社會，
要找個好男人難，
要找個對你忠心不二的
更難！！！

唉。。。
看的事情越多，
感慨的是自然也隨著多了。

還是一句話
不能改變現有的狀況話
那只有接受了
倘若不能接受
那就離開吧~

【转载】听说重感情的人都这样

1、自己走路会很快

2、喜欢黑夜，习惯晚睡

3、隐藏心事，喜欢一个人流泪

4、喜欢有口袋的衣服，否则不知道手该放哪里

5、习惯抱臂

6、习惯冷战

7、喜欢窗户，喜欢角落、习惯蜷缩

8、喜欢写字和阅读

9、莫名地孤单，无法抗拒的恐惧感

10、不爱说话或很爱说话

11、心事放在心底，有一个自己的世界

12、把笑挂在脸上，幻想自己是有安全感的孩子

13、习惯了沉默，在沉默中爆发或者选择灭亡

14、习惯了怀疑，却总是要把人往好处想

15、不相信童话，却一直期待会有个真正懂得自己保护自己的人出现

16、喜欢怀旧，之后感到深深的寂寞和恐惧

17、不喜欢一个人逛街可又总是一个人逛街

18、一点点事就胡思乱想，想到戏剧般的吓人

19、喜欢听慢歌，伤感的歌

20、会很用心地记下生命中出现的每个人

21、习惯暗恋，爱上一个人会全心全意

22、坐在电脑前，不知道做什么，却又不想关掉它

23、觉得世界上每一个人都不可靠，但却还是轻易地选择相信别人

24、偶尔会有种想消失，或是想一辈子沉睡的想法

25、不喜欢等待，却总是等待

26、经常不经意的发呆

27、习惯活在过去，喜欢怀旧

28、总会把事情想得很长久

29、不习惯一个人莫名其妙地消失在自己的生命中

30、总是觉得没有人能把自己放在心里疼

31、容易满足，更容易受伤

32、喜欢伤感，甚至颓废

33、习惯保留自己，因为只有这样在离开的时候，心才不会痛

34、总有一种，被忽视的感觉

35、看似花心，看似肤浅，其实是在保护自己

36、付出的远远超过得到的

37、很固执，不懂得放弃，但一旦放弃了就绝不会回头

38、总是说着要离开，却一再为自己找不离开的理由

39、在别人面前笑得很开心，一个人的时候却很漠落

40、在陌生人面前很安静，在朋友面前胡闹

41、玩网游只是为了打发寂寞

42、喜欢下小雨时淋雨

43.、并不是所要的太多的回报，只要一点点就可以让我们死心塌地，可以很少，但一定要有

44、心情不好的时候，却喜欢听悲歌


读了这篇过后，发现我是这样的一个人~

man

i need a man..
i mean a real one...

there's tons of guys out there can treat me nice and they are good maybe
but i know it's very difficult to find a man who only loves you and he wont betray you..
one night stand without any love or chemical relationship also counted as betray, isn't it?

as time goes by, i start to understand what Nick Gor told me before..

I have learnt bit by bit and it's time to grow up.. face the cruelty REAL world..
u understand the rules, u learn it, last, what u can do is to accept it..
if not? Fine, just escape it..
but in the end, u might find out u're the only one and u're alone~

可怕的事

我觉得blogspot最可怕的是，
有人读过你所写的一切，
你却不知道那些人是谁；
所写的心情和秘密
好像会诏告天下
可是我却无法自拔地想写下去
又来了
我的矛盾~~~

Believe~

People around me, they know that I can't trust any guys out there~
some of them thought I was hurted by my ex
but for those who knows me well,
they know the reason why I don't trust any guys out there..
I have to declare..
I know how to love and I'm ready to love^^

我爱你

我爱你是種需要，习惯还是发自内心？
有时候，我会渐渐模糊
但，你却好像牵引着我回来你的身边。

狂欢后的落寞。我开始无法自拔地喜欢上你的胡渣。
而你，确实让我很惊喜。

Arrggg......

i'm so pissed off recently..
i don know how to be patient..
i don feel like talking to the people around me..
damn it...

FW: Goal Setting Powerful Written Goals In 7 Easy Steps! by Gene Donohue

Goal Setting
Powerful Written Goals In 7 Easy Steps!
by Gene Donohue

The car is packed and you're ready to go, your first ever cross-country trip. From the White Mountains of New Hampshire to the rolling hills of San Francisco, you're going to see it all.
You put the car in gear and off you go. First stop, the Baseball Hall of Fame in Cooperstown, New York.
A little while into the trip you need to check the map because you've reached an intersection you're not familiar with. You panic for a moment because you realize you've forgotten your map.
But you say the heck with it because you know where you're going. You take a right, change the radio station and keep on going. Unfortunately, you never reach your destination.
Too many of us treat goal setting the same way. We dream about where we want to go, but we don't have a map to get there.
What is a map? In essence, the written word.
What is the difference between a dream and a goal? Once again, the written word.
Goal setting however is more than simply scribbling down some ideas on a piece of paper. Our goals need to be complete and focused, much like a road map, and that is the purpose behind the rest of this article.
If you follow the 7 goal setting steps I've outlined in this article you will be well on your way to becoming an expert in building the road maps to your goals.
1. Make sure the goal you are working for is something you really want, not just something that sounds good.
I remember when I started taking baseball umpiring more seriously. I began to set my sites on the NCAA Division 1 level. Why? I knew there was no way I could get onto the road to the major leagues, so the next best thing was the highest college level. Pretty cool, right. Wrong.
Sure, when I was talking to people about my umpiring goals it sounded pretty good, and many people were quite impressed. Fortunately I began to see through my own charade.
I have been involved in youth sports for a long time. I've coached, I've been the President of leagues, I've been a treasurer and I'm currently an Assistant State Commissioner for Cal Ripken Baseball. Youth sports is where I belong, it is where my heart belongs, not on some college diamond where the only thing at stake is a high draft spot.
When setting goals it is very important to remember that your goals must be consistent with your values.
2. A goal can not contradict any of your other goals.
For example, you can't buy a $750,000 house if your income goal is only $50,000 per year. This is called non-integrated thinking and will sabotage all of the hard work you put into your goals. Non-integrated thinking can also hamper your everyday thoughts as well. We should continually strive to eliminate contradictory ideas from our thinking.

3. Develop goals in the 6 areas of life:

Family and Home               Financial and Career
Spiritual and Ethical           Physical and Health
Social and Cultural             Mental and Educational

Setting goals in each area of life will ensure a more balanced life as you begin to examine and change the fundamentals of everyday living. Setting goals in each area of life also helps in eliminating the non-integrated thinking we talked about in the 2nd step.
4. Write your goal in the positive instead of the negative.
Work for what you want, not for what you want to leave behind. Part of the reason why we write down and examine our goals is to create a set of instructions for our subconscious mind to carry out. Your subconscious mind is a very efficient tool, it can not determine right from wrong and it does not judge. It's only function is to carry out its instructions. The more positive instructions you give it, the more positive results you will get.
Thinking positively in everyday life will also help in your growth as a human being. Don't limit it to goal setting.
5. Write your goal out in complete detail.
Instead of writing "A new home," write "A 4,000 square foot contemporary with 4 bedrooms and 3 baths and a view of the mountain on 20 acres of land.
Once again we are giving the subconscious mind a detailed set of instructions to work on. The more information you give it, the more clear the final outcome becomes. The more precise the outcome, the more efficient the subconscious mind can become.
Can you close your eyes and visualize the home I described above? Walk around the house. Stand on the porch off the master bedroom and see the fog lifting off the mountain. Look down at the garden full of tomatoes, green beans and cucumbers. And off to the right is the other garden full of a mums, carnations and roses. Can you see it? So can your subconscious mind.
6. By all means, make sure your goal is high enough.
Shoot for the moon, if you miss you'll still be in the stars. Earlier I talked about my umpiring goals and how making it to the top level of college umpiring did not mix with my values. Some of you might be saying that I'm not setting my goals high enough. Not so. I still have very high goals for my umpiring career at the youth level. My ultimate goal is to be chosen to umpire a Babe Ruth World Series and to do so as a crew chief. If I never make it, everything I do to reach that goal will make me a better umpire and a better person. If I make it, but don't go as a crew chief, then I am still among the top youth umpires in the nation. Shoot for the moon!
7. This is the most important, write down your goals.
Writing down your goals creates the roadmap to your success. Although just the act of writing them down can set the process in motion, it is also extremely important to review your goals frequently. Remember, the more focused you are on your goals the more likely you are to accomplish them.
Sometimes we realize we have to revise a goal as circumstances and other goals change, much like I did with my umpiring. If you need to change a goal do not consider it a failure, consider it a victory as you had the insight to realize something was different.

So your goals are written down. Now what?

First of all, unless someone is critical to helping you achieve your goal(s), do not freely share your goals with others. The negative attitude from friends, family and neighbors can drag you down quickly. It's very important that your self-talk (the thoughts in your head) are positive. Reviewing your goals daily is a crucial part of your success and must become part of your routine. Each morning when you wake up read your list of goals that are written in the positive. Visualize the completed goal, see the new home, smell the leather seats in your new car, feel the cold hard cash in your hands. Then each night, right before you go to bed, repeat the process. This process will start both your subconscious and conscious mind on working towards the goal. This will also begin to replace any of the negative self-talk you may have and replace it with positive self-talk.
Every time you make a decision during the day, ask yourself this question, "Does it take me closer to, or further from my goal." If the answer is "closer to," then you've made the right decision. If the answer is "further from," well, you know what to do.
If you follow this process everyday you will be on your way to achieving unlimited success in every aspect of your life.

The difference between a goal
and a dream is the written word.-Gene Donohue

2011

happy new year..
it's my 1st blog in the new year...

my new year resolution
- earn ***k each, for both of my shop
- find something to do besides my clothing business, feel like doing property, investment stuff, accounting, finance or maybe event.. any one of them will do..
- travel travel travel...

i'm looking forward my 2011.. i know i'll doing better compare to 2010..

~bless me~